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ivyficHow sad is it that when Dean pictures himself happy, it is with a one-night stand and a kid that isn't even his. I think this says so much about him. Sam is the only relationship he's got. You take away same, and the only thing he has is this fantasy he made up about a woman he was never even in a relationship with and a kid who he clearly likes to think of as his son, but probably isn't. Even if Ben is, Dean isn't a father to him in any really sense. He doesn't know either of these people at all. But he's clinging to them all the same because, without Sam, all he's got is this fantasy family he made up out of whole cloth.
I mean, wow.
I think this is something that Sam needs to know about Dean. Dean has never tried for normal, and Sam has always battled with him over that. But it's clear that Dean yearns for a normal family in some soul-deep way that he never expresses. So much so that he's willing to make a deal to protect people he only has a relationship to in his head. I know he's not making this deal for them alone, it's been a piling on of everything, but the sacrificing himself to save his family is so deeply a part of him that this time he has made up a family that he can save.
Also, can someone explain to me the title of this episode? I don't get it.
I mean, wow.
I think this is something that Sam needs to know about Dean. Dean has never tried for normal, and Sam has always battled with him over that. But it's clear that Dean yearns for a normal family in some soul-deep way that he never expresses. So much so that he's willing to make a deal to protect people he only has a relationship to in his head. I know he's not making this deal for them alone, it's been a piling on of everything, but the sacrificing himself to save his family is so deeply a part of him that this time he has made up a family that he can save.
Also, can someone explain to me the title of this episode? I don't get it.